Braiding Her Hair
I talked about the time I changed Mariah's tampon in class on break today. They were disgusted about it and I didn't completely understand why. I understand it being obscene, but that was my girlfriend at the time, someone I loved, why wouldn't I do that. We use to pee together at times for fun. But that's not what this is about. I want to braid my girlfriends hair. I want her to lean on me for several reasons. Things like tat are a better way to bond to me. I want to intricately know her hair texture, if she's tender-headed, and kiss her forehead after I finish each braid. Braiding is more of a mental thing for me. I'd show affection to her hands by biting and sucking on the part above the knuckle and below the nail.Tracing things on her skin is something I tend to do out of affection as well. But yea, I wanna wash my girlfriends hair then braid it. It'll be another way to take care of her. Maybe what I do comes from my insecurity and fear of being forgotten, I use to help Mariah take down her sew-ins and fix them if they were loose, even Ricki. Just a day where we're not doing anything, I want her to sit down and let me braid her hair. Like I said before, I'd kiss her after each braid is finished and welcome any new instances of affection that occur at that moment. There's so many ways I want to become one with someone I love. I don't think this eradicates any masculinity. I'm always complimenting eyebrows also so I know I'll end up arching or cleaning hers at times. Mariah use to fix mine so I guess it rubbed off on me. (Mariah is my ex-girlfriend from 2011-2012)
Body checks will be something I try to utilize as well.. How often do lovers look at each other naked for concern and not sexually. Looking for rashes, unknown birthmarks, lumps, etc. Being there for her in whole is something I desire. but the worth to match this expression is hella difficult nowadays. I can easily make my companion or any woman in general feel good with basic affection like kisses, warm hugs, sex, sexless massages, kind words or poetry, painting about them, soul searching them, etc. But making her look good outside of purchasing clothes is a new trait that I want to possess. I feel like that's a new love; to make your companion look good without purchasing anything. It'll be a difficult process to learn but that's what'll make the bond strong. No other man is gonna braid her hair because of how fragile masculinity is and that's how I rearrange my output of insecurity, by trying to make myself unforgettable. Messing up her braids and fixing them until they look decent will be so synonymous to our relationship overall. I would find myself better suited to braid my daughters hair if I were to have one.
You know what else though, I wanna shave her vagina, cut the chocolate chips off her cookie lol. It's basically so I can understand the process because I heard it's difficult and I just want to KNOW instead of only being informed about it. This is more about balance and understanding than a personal battle with eradicating my own hyper-masculinity. I'm still hyper-masculine in certain areas and I'm trying to make eradicate it or make it as subtle as possible and be a balanced man who understands my companion. So I'm proud of that, I'm not ashamed of who I am anymore, I think I'm cool without anyone trying to agree or reassure me. I like who I am and what I do.
Now after articulating this idea, I bet I meet some girl with some braidable hair. I'm gonna fall for her, end up braiding her hair, and show affection several different ways.. I'll treat her in such a way that she'll want it, but can't handle it because she possibly puts time on emotional output and that's something I've learned to understand and accept over the past two years. She'll possibly say some out of the blue shit like "I wish the guy I was talking to did stuff like this for me or with me." Lol I'll politely stop whatever I'm doing and just let go of whatever is going on between us. Honestly, I'm not good at being just friends, I always wanna be with someone, it's a natural feeling for me. That's a flaw of mine that I own and it helps to keep me from being indecisive. I'll go through my write-outs about her, which lasts about two weeks, and move on to the next idea of how to love a woman in a deeper manner.
But yea, hopefully my next companion has braidable hair and if not, I'll enjoy washing her hair and massaging oil in it.
Body checks will be something I try to utilize as well.. How often do lovers look at each other naked for concern and not sexually. Looking for rashes, unknown birthmarks, lumps, etc. Being there for her in whole is something I desire. but the worth to match this expression is hella difficult nowadays. I can easily make my companion or any woman in general feel good with basic affection like kisses, warm hugs, sex, sexless massages, kind words or poetry, painting about them, soul searching them, etc. But making her look good outside of purchasing clothes is a new trait that I want to possess. I feel like that's a new love; to make your companion look good without purchasing anything. It'll be a difficult process to learn but that's what'll make the bond strong. No other man is gonna braid her hair because of how fragile masculinity is and that's how I rearrange my output of insecurity, by trying to make myself unforgettable. Messing up her braids and fixing them until they look decent will be so synonymous to our relationship overall. I would find myself better suited to braid my daughters hair if I were to have one.
You know what else though, I wanna shave her vagina, cut the chocolate chips off her cookie lol. It's basically so I can understand the process because I heard it's difficult and I just want to KNOW instead of only being informed about it. This is more about balance and understanding than a personal battle with eradicating my own hyper-masculinity. I'm still hyper-masculine in certain areas and I'm trying to make eradicate it or make it as subtle as possible and be a balanced man who understands my companion. So I'm proud of that, I'm not ashamed of who I am anymore, I think I'm cool without anyone trying to agree or reassure me. I like who I am and what I do.
Now after articulating this idea, I bet I meet some girl with some braidable hair. I'm gonna fall for her, end up braiding her hair, and show affection several different ways.. I'll treat her in such a way that she'll want it, but can't handle it because she possibly puts time on emotional output and that's something I've learned to understand and accept over the past two years. She'll possibly say some out of the blue shit like "I wish the guy I was talking to did stuff like this for me or with me." Lol I'll politely stop whatever I'm doing and just let go of whatever is going on between us. Honestly, I'm not good at being just friends, I always wanna be with someone, it's a natural feeling for me. That's a flaw of mine that I own and it helps to keep me from being indecisive. I'll go through my write-outs about her, which lasts about two weeks, and move on to the next idea of how to love a woman in a deeper manner.
But yea, hopefully my next companion has braidable hair and if not, I'll enjoy washing her hair and massaging oil in it.
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